Last year was the toughest year in my life, I experience extreme pain for the loss of my grandma. One year has passed, the pain did not fade though time has passed so quickly. Tears still well up when I think of my beloved grandma. This pain has taught me how to treasure, and learn to treasure as well as wanting to treasure. 

At certain point of life, we grow up. If it's not for the pain, perhaps I might need a longer period of time to grow up. Thank you grandma, for teaching me how to grow up and be more strong. I am now a stronger person hoping to also become a better person. 

To me, growing up is not just about becoming mature or becoming more knowledgeable. Growing up is about being able to care for people around me, accepting love and care from people that loves and care for me. Growing up is about being able to let go of unhappy things and accepting flaws of people around you. Growing up is also about understanding that no one is ever perfect and you can never perfectness from people. Growing up.. growing up.. I can go on and on for a long list.. 

Today I learned that, 

"You can decide how you want to treat people, but you cannot expect people to treat you like the way you want it" whoever-that-says-this.

When I was younger, I get angry at people who treats me below the expectation of how I expect them to treat me. Then I realise, that it's not up to me to control. Afterall, we have different brains from two different bodies, I can't possibly control their brains to treat me better, so I gave up trying (haha). Okay, that's not the point. I took so long to understand this, but well, at least I finally get this now!