There is something about me, I feel so inferior. I feel like I am never comparable to anyone.. Every other girl. I am sick, I took medications, I become fat. No matter how much exercise I do, no weight is loss. I can't do anything about it.. I feel unhappy, I am angry with myself, I hate myself.. But, I didn't want this illness to get onto me either. Where is my fault? It's not that I want to fall sick, it's not that I want to take medication, it's not that I want to get fat.. But I still do..

This is not what I can control. 

Yet, I am not defeated. I exercise, I take medication, I try to be happy. Stop bringing me down, over and over again. Why is every other girl better than me? Why? Why?

Why? I really wonder why.