It has been raining a lot this month, even now, it's drizzling outside my window. I love this kind of weather, it's called the lazy weather. It makes me feel lazy. I just wanna roll up with my blanket on my bed and snooze till forever.

It's been days since my birthday has passed and I had a lot of celebrations with many different friends. I am very blessed. A big shout out to all my friends "Thank you and I appreciate all that you guys have done for me!" 

I am actually feeling a little emotional right now, so many thoughts are going through my mind and repeatedly, I question myself, "Does it really matter?". Oh well, I'm feeling a little sleepy right now even through the thoughts are definitely running wild.

Anyway, random thought here we go.

Women are really worth a lot of respect, of course I mean certain woman. Not every single out there, but definitely, I can say, mothers are the ones that worth the most respect. *Salutes* But my random thought isn't about mothers, it's about woman.

Some woman, once they are married, they gave their everything to their husband and the family they own. Some even have to marry the whole of the husband's family (that's a sad thing). I am sure, if we love our another half enough, we would give everything to them. By everything, I really mean by mentally, physically and everything else we have. Some women are like that. By we, I am referring to that I am actually someone like that as well. 

We would always place our another half as the priority and once we start a family, that's it, THEY are our everything. There can't be anything more precious than him and the family that we started or even comparable. We know it too well that we are silly till this extent.

What if, we place them with such high priority and realize that we are actually not their priority? 

I mean, I am trying to fight in my brain that it's okay not to be in the prioritized position but no, this is not winning what they heart feels.

Even as a normal person, don't you feel angry that if you named somebody your best friend but she only thinks that you're her so called so-so friend? Isn't that hurtful enough? This is just a example lar.

We humans wants to be noticed and prioritized , yes sure we do say 'I am not' but secretly curse and swears behind people's back when they don't treat us the same. You little bitches deserves two tight slaps for not treating us the same. HAHAHAHA.

Yeah, my point is, it would be really hurtful to know that if you're not prioritized yet you gave everything you could just to become a 1st in his heart, especially, we the silly women. 

How about a man? What's the most important thing in his life? Is it your another half? Your family? Your money? Or other women?

RANDOM thought means, random and out of nowhere.