Saturday, July 9, 2011 , 11:50 PM
Who doesn't want to stay healthy?
I regret for not taking good care of my health, I really regret so much, but what's the point of regretting? When I can still afford to be healthy, my loved ones stopped me from all the unhealthy foods, I disobeyed.
Now my chance is gone.
If health could be bought, I would work all my life to just buy a good health. Sadly, you can't, nor I can. What I see in myself, is a whole load of disappointment from others. And, boyfriend blaming himself for not stopping me with all those restricted foods, or even if he did, and I just disobey him.
I regret this.
I just need a second chance to get well again. Even prisoners get second chances, why can't a sick person too?
But I know, I won't get to have a perfect health again. It's so precious that if you don't know how to treasure it, it would be gone, forever. No matter how much you want to redeem it, it just won't come back anymore.
I am learning to keep myself focus and restrict myself from the food I eat. Because I am so afraid I might just go off one day. And who would take care of my family, my baby and my friends?
I'm afraid to be a burden too. But I still am. Will you be able to love me if I don't get well?
Faith.
Very grumpy.
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