I want to eat a whole chicken. Ok, I was just kidding..

I don't know, but if I die, will there be any difference? I know and I bet I am gonna miss out alot of things that will happen after I leave the world. I am sure I will miss these people that appears in my daily life, my parents, my brothers, my granny, my boyfriend, my buddies, my besties, my friends, my.. I don't know.

I mean, I will definitely miss my enemy if they happen to leave so sudden some day. I will miss them, in a good way although I might hate them when they were around. Will you miss me if I am gone? Secretly I am hoping my 'departure' will cause a difference in all your lives, however I am not leaving this world yet, I can't live/die without chickens!

So all of a sudden I have to accept I am diagnosed with a very disastrous disease, and I am afraid I will have to accept that I am dying some day. Yes, afraid, that's exactly the word I am looking for.

I am so afraid I might just close my eyes and lost sight of everything, then slowly my breathing stops, I can't hold on to anything, I feel nothing, and gone. Yeah. She's dead, me, I am dead. Death is so horrible, we just can't eat chickens anymore.

Where do we go after death?

I don't wanna go anywhere, I want to be here, watching over everyone that's close to me.