No, it’s not you; it’s just me, thinking a lot about it.

It’s just me who couldn’t cross that barrier in me. I can’t stop myself from thinking why did you do that, maybe I am just not as good as what I should be. I know you have never thought this way, maybe. I really hope so.

The barrier in me is a demon. I need to kill the demon to live better, to accept life as it is and revive the me in myself. Sometimes we are just not born to be close to perfect, it’s what we tried to achieve made us almost perfect. I told myself to never look down on myself, but any action by the closed one that objects my mindset will kill me.

After all, I am still appreciated and loved. Why do I need to mind so much?

Because I don’t want to be a joke to anyone around you, I don’t want to be the topic at free times after every meal, I don’t want to know that others talked about me. I just want get out of this net that is tying down on me.

I want to work hard to become different; I need to be different for you.

It's all because I love you.